Carly Alyssa Thorne
I have been continously asked why and how I am so positive, have this much energy, passion etc... So here is a bit of the why...
Who is Carly Alyssa Thorne and how did she get here ???
The Journey Called My Life of SOS... to CAT..
Yes, this is LONG... AND... If You Choose to take the Journey with me, I Promise YOU, you will have many Aha moments. You will GET the Reason Why I am all About TRANSFORMATIONS of the Mind, Body, and Spirit... and why I am so Passionate and live full out.
I will not be mentioning any full names or places to honor people's Privacy. I am THANKFUL AND GRATEFUL to a select few, yes few... that came to my side and helped me to find the Light in my time of need and much darkness... You find out real quickly who your true friends are in the darkest of times.
This full bio is here to give you a a sense of who I am and why I can talk from a place of experience. I feel, it is important to share one's story ONLY from the perspective that if I CAN DO IT, SO CAN YOU...
NOT, for your pity, not to stay in the past, or dwell on it. I am Extremely Grateful for my Past, it has made me into the Strong, Compassionate, Healthy, Giving, Person I am today... I have chosen to share my story to EMPOWER others to BE THE BEST them EVER... and with the HOPE... That they will ALWAYS choose themselves... CHOOSE LIFE...
I have been told by many Bosses, Friends, Ex's and More that I am:
***A cross between an amazing Old Soul Mind***
***An Angel Caretaker Heart***
***An old fashioned housewife with Zen***
***A Spirit with Spit and fire, minus the Scorpion Sting...
***Add a heaping dose of LOVE...
***A bit bull when I need to be, to get things done...
***A Butterfly that is always Transforming... and ever evolving...
SKILL SET WISE:
Keeping in mind I waa born in 1964 folks... I have spent the last 25 years wearing many hats at the same time so to Speak and have always been one to have MULTIPLE balls juggling in the air with grace, ease, and joy, and sometimes NOT with grace, ease, and joy... I think it is the PRODUCER Energy in Me... Thankfully I learned to Embrace and LOVE the Concepts of sharing, collaboration, co-creating and TEAMWORK... That was a lesson that did take years in the making LOL... as the younger me when I started working right out of High School, was of the mentality that I was a lone island struggling against the current all by myself due to a lack of trust of others due to many experiences you will hear about below.
BUSINESS WOMAN:
***Consultant and Management
***Production Event Coordinator and Manager
***Producer, Director
***HR: Hiring, Firing, and Recruiting for Corporate.
INTUITIVE HEALER:
***Eastern and Western Ways Mentor
***Interfaith Ordained Schooled Minister
***Energy Healing and Intuit
***Bodywork of All Kinds
***Certified Personal Training
***Reconstructive Body Alignment Rehab
***Hospice Counselor
***Certified Life Coach
MEDICAL WORK: Western World of Medicine
***Certified Nurses Aide
***Certified Home Health Aide
***Certified EMT-D
***Certified First Responder
***Ambulance Core Chief
***Private duty cases in ICU, CCU, and ER.
PLAYING:
***Singing, Dancing, and Modeling
***Writing and Editing
***Producing and Directing on both sides of the camera.
MATE and HOUSEWIFE:
***Love to Cook, Clean, and take care of Loved ones...
***I am a pamperer, Hm...
***I think I was a GEISHA in a previous Life... LOL...
So right now I am sure there are those thinking NO way she could have been good at all of those things and or successful at them. I was a fighter, a survivor, strong, determined so yes, I actually was really good at my professions. I was Certified, Trained, had amazing jobs with Top executives, Companies, and People from all around the World. Did I have great testimonies and large salaries... YUP... Did I have my UP and DOWNS... YUP... Was I Passionate about all these things, Yes I was...
So now you are thinking OK, so what is the problem ? HOW COULD I HAVE all of these things in one LIFETIME even maybe; at the same time and be HAPPY... HEALTHY... SUCCESSFUL... and ABUNDANT... HM... Better yet the question WAS ??? How come every time I finally got everything back to together again and things were AWESOME... BOOM... There it would go again... I did say I had my ups and downs, I never said I wasn't good or successful at my professions, because I was, the PROBLEM was it would only last so long.
One of the AHA's...
My training would tell me I had a very busy monkey mind full of old outdated unconscious beliefs running around in there taking me out at a very chance it got. Until we are truly willing to LET go and Surrender and CHANGE, Nothing will Change in our lives... We just keep repeating the same patterns over and over and over until we get so tired of living a certain way OR something HUGE happens in our life's to wake us up. Ex. Car accident, illness etc.
What I am going to share with You is NOT Pretty...Yup baring it all, laying all the cards on the table...
However, in sharing my story others can see that anyone can Achieve, Overcome and become Anything and Everything they want to BE- NO MATTER WHAT... Ultimately, at some point and time in our life's, it all boils down to CHOICE...
WHO AND WHERE I WAS THEN to get to the present:
I was born in Yonkers, NY in 1964 with the birth given name of the initials of SOS... This was very symbolic of my childhood and my life growing up. I was always seeking help, in trouble, confused, and dismayed with Life. I had MANY health, family and relationship problems...TODAY, I wouldn't call them problems, Tough LOVE and lessons of self growth.
I left the United States when I was 5 years old and then went on to live in Mexico, Venezuela and Brazil until the age of 14. I returned to the U.S. in 9th grade of High School and from there Lived all over NY State, NJ and Beyond...
I am THANKFUL and GRATEFUL NOW for the Journey of much travel, Yet as a youth, I was angry, in crisis mode all of the time and Sooo NOT thankful. TODAY, all of that travel has made me an individual that is able to Ebb and Flow and adapt to any given environment or situation and to be able to THINK on my Feet... It has given me the respect and knowledge of the many different cultures and to acknowledge all Beings as individuals, yet the same on a Soul level.
I look at COACHING, MENTORING and TEACHING as one MUST come from experience to be able to truly help someone... and I mean Direct experience of the things they are Mentoring or Consulting about...
How can someone Help You about certain things unless they themselves have experienced similar issues ? Your experience is unique YES... However, at least someone can Empath, Understand, if they themselves have experienced it, to their own degree. I am saying this because, as THANKFUL and GRATEFUL AS I AM for my LIFE... It was NOT by far an EASY path... I look back Now and realize the PATH I CHOOSE, was my path of Strength, Understanding, and Compassion, for myself and others, and to be able to use my gifts to help others get out of their Maze of darkness as I did.
To CHOOSE Life, To Say YES, I am bigger than ALL of this... Everything has beauty, even within the darkness.. I grew up with severe Sexual, Verbal and Physical Abuse to the extend that at one time I was on Social Security Disability and had severe Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I went through years of treatment and was on many western medicines, even hospitalized over 4 times, twice for suicide attempts. I had repeated weight problems from Anorexia 95 lbs, which, with my frame- which is big boned, and athletic is not good, to bulimia and overweight of a breaking point of 200 lbs. I went thru this cycle 3x.
To add to all of this my mother had German Measles when she was pregnant with, and they told her to abort me because I might have this or that etc... She didn't Thank God, as I am here... And... I was very ill as a child so much so there are no baby pictures of me until I was a few months old.
Me and my God Mother
Starting at the age of 16 entering into serious dysfunctional relationships... Leading to 3 Marriages to continue the abuse cycle from my childhood as I knew no different and the 4th marriage which was beyond abusive to the point I almost died and my husband committing suicide. WOW... NOW THAT IS A MOUTHFUL.. To top it all off. I was riddled with Medical Problems since I was born and I stopped counting after I hit surgery #17 for medical reasons all within 15 years. In total now 26 surgeries as of 11/2012 in a lifetime...
Further self study into the Mind, Body, Spirit connection and body memories would prove that some of this was MY attempt of removing the pain and memories from my body that was riddled with fear and pain all of the time. My body created all sorts of problems medically- Severe Endometriosis, degenerative joint bone disease in all major joints etc... etc... etc...
I am NOT saying they weren't legitimate surgeries they were for REAL things, and I almost Died, Numerous times... One of my lessons in massively studying Western and Eastern medicine and philosophies is they both have a purpose and a place.
I realized Years Later as I went thru years and layers of Self-Discovery and The Mind, Body, Spirit connection that I created the disease in my body... A way to Deal and cope with all of the Fear, Anger, Sadness my Inner Child felt... And at the time the Unwillingness to Truly Forgive SELF and Others for everything that I experienced, felt, went thru etc...
The Ultimate breaking of the cycle and AHA moment came when my late husband died- Committed Suicide in 1998. I HAD A CHOICE to make, DO I CHOOSE LIFE OR DEATH ??? Do I CHOOSE to let everyone blame me ??? Beat myself up... Feel Guilty, Kill myself ???
I smiled and Laughed a lot, I was Great at Facial Masks... I had always been the Healer, Healing others, picking partners that needed to be saved. I had never TRULY saved or healed myself though, until that one fated day, when I finally CHOOSE ME... I CHOOSE LIFE...
My late husband was my BIGGEST GIFT... I THANK HIM IMMENSELY FOR THAT GIFT OF CHOICE....and WAKING MY ASS UP... TRUST ME, when I tell you the CHOICE was not EASY... I had to stand Alone, strong, let go of old friends, family members, the STORIES... Stand UP to the Past, Stand up to Family members and STAND firm and CHOOSING ME... AND also take FULL RESPONSIBILITY for my Part in the allowing of the Co-Creation of it all...
I had to be willing to EXPOSE all the SKELETONS of the past, even my OWN demons, and errors. I had to be willing to CHOOSE to face up to MY STUFF. Be willing to SHOW UP and NOT Care what others thought of ME in Sharing all of this... Hiding was NO Longer an OPTION for me...
NOW AM I SAYING THAT I AM ALL OF A SUDDEN SAVED, DONE... Of course NOT... I am still and will always be Evolving, Choosing, making mistakes along the way... THANK GOD... Who would want to be Perfect..
THE FINAL CHOICE POINT.... which I wrote the piece about my Journey
from 200 lbs. to 125 lbs...
